Samantha got news this past Tuesday about her grandfather's passing. His funeral was yesterday in Lexington, SC. I accompanied her to the funeral. His funeral reminded me of when my grandfather passed away my senior year of high school. I think I will miss him until the Lord takes me home. Yesterday, at the funeral, I was reminded of how our lives can truly impact others. The legacy that Samantha's grandfather has left behind is nothing short of amazing. Although I was only able to meet him a few times, I am definitely challenged by the example he set as a man of God.
Today, I am in Winston-Salem, NC, visiting with my grandmother. She is currently in Wake Forest University Baptist Hospital. Being in Boston and hearing the updates from Dad and Ang are a far cry from being here and seeing it first hand. When I walked through the door of Room 814 this morning, my heart began to break as I first laid eyes on her. The image of the energetic, always encouraging Maw Maw, to whom I can run with whatever life throws me, quickly fled and was replaced by a thin, frail woman who is just ready to no longer be in pain. As I embraced her; her tears began to fall. She was joyful to see us [Ang, Samantha and myself].
My heart breaks to see her in this state. I remember watching helplessly as my grandfather's health slowly and painfully drained from his life. I am not ready to go through that again. I do not want to revisit that pain - not yet; not with her.
This is the breaking of my heart.
Tomorrow, I will be spending the day with Ang; I miss seeing her all the time. I am sure it will turn into a photography session - and possibly a spontaneous trip into downtown. It will be fun. Wednesday will be spent applying for a transfer to a J Crew in Charlotte for the summer. Phillip [one of my best friends and cousin] and I will hopefully get some time to chill this week. I will go to CBF on Wednesday night. I miss that group of people. CBF is the bible study I attended, while I was going to school at UNC-Charlotte.
I will post updates throughout the week as I can. Please pray. Pray for healing. Pray for comfort. Pray for peace as I and my family learn to accept what God has willed in this situation.
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